There comes a point when you have to stop and breathe. I am, and always have been, a worrier. I have tried over the years to lessen this "weakness/fault" in my makeup, but it is just how I am, my default trait. We have a lot going on, fairly new marriage (last year), complete renovation of our house in a new area, my business set up etc etc.
For the past year I haven't felt completely well, hard to pinpoint, just not me, I feel wrong, out of step with myself. Finally, having dragged myself off to the Doctor I am now being poked and prodded, blood tests , biopsies and scans taken. Hopefully the picture will become clear and I can soon begin to feel well again.
Tomorrow my husband heads off abroad to visit his family for 10 days. I am going to take advantage of this time alone to head off with my dogs back to Dartmoor ( which I miss more than I ever thought I would), to walk in the fresh air unencumbered by time pressures and all that comes with home/family life. Sounds selfish I suppose, but I REALLY need this space to try and let go of the stress that seems to be coursing through my body. Endless miles of uninterrupted moorland to blow the cobwebs away, meeting up with old friends for lazy lunches and catch ups. Just what the Doctor ordered!
Plans for my business are progressing very well. I have the most wonderful photographer onside to take all the images needed for the website etc. His wife is a talented stylist, I am so looking forward to styling the product with her, I have amassed lots of wonderful props, it will be fun.
Waiting for medical results can be a little daunting, however I have to say that I have been so impressed with the speed and efficiency that all the departments have dealt with things so far.
Time alone is precious in our fast moving world. Getting into my pyjamas early in the evening, a light supper (if I feel like it) and a good old Midsommer Murders seems SO appealing!
So... I will make the best possible use of the time I have to JUST BE.
images via the curious bumblebee, prettypicsdelightfultips and buttered up bakeshop
I hope you are all having a wonderful Summer. I do sense some mornings, a slight Autumnal nip in the air. Autumn, my favourite season.